painful my

Looking back at photos and remembering how many mistakes i  have made. Weather it's with pets, people  homes, problems,  etc. It's my feel hurt and stupid not seeing them. Some a little some a huge life choices. I wish my brain worked out things fast. My brain has always been slow even growing up. So choices i wish i could go back but i can't even some for the future is too hard. Had do i choose what i want. How do i not look at some photos and not feel regrets and fraud against. How do i leave the past behind without pain seeing photos is meant to be joyful not painful