my oldest son

I don't know how i did it but i drove my son away. I'm so heartbroken he chose to life with his aunty and uncle. We feel bartered like it was there plans for awhile. I don't understand what i done i try to keep my mood swings under control i have 26+ depression tablets for 20plus years nothing works. I thought we were doing good our kids had a pretty good childhood. I hope one day he will realise that and know i love him unconditionally.