my heart is so heavy, I don't have any spark left in me. I miss you so much mummy. I still can't believe your gone. I thought about making a cheesecake for you and than remembered you weren't here. I feel so guilty for not being there for you for last 6 weeks and for not knowing what was going on with you. I talked to all day but it's doesn't feel real. I'm so grateful for all the times I did come out to see you and make your room so beautiful. I was going to Iluka to do your project and now I will be doing for your loved ones that you left behind. I can't understand why u had to leave us. missing you always jay with empty heart.